7/31/11

argh! an injury is causing me to walk rather than run.  i know i'm more than what i do, so i would rather be safe & healthy than hurt & running.  walking it now with hubby is better than being immobile from pain.  time & patience will tell what will happen next

7/19/11

ok, so i did 10 miles on saturday and 3 today, i still feel like i'm hittiing the perpetual wall.  what lesson am i learning: perserverence (or possibly spelling?) or sometimes one needs to quit to prevent a serious injury.  my legs feel like lead, and i can't shake this ever louder voice that says i've taken on more than i can chew.  i also don't want to get injured or be stubborn about something that God is telling me to give up.  i don't want to end up hating running because i ran injured.  or maybe, i'm just plain nervous and need to plug through this.  i need to find my inner champion, that inner hero that won't quit (even if it means that hero needs to encourage a sidelined runner!)  argh!  sometimes life lessons just plain suck!  but at least i got a good sweat in!

7/12/11

as my mileage is increasing, and my legs are hurting, i can't help but wonder what i've gotten myself into.  there's no way i will let the fear stop me, but the nerves are rising.  now that hubby is a 'maybe' with his injuries, and i'm hearing not so great stories of this race, i can't help but get a lump in my throat.  but i will also remember that forward motion is the mantra, be strong, be brave, no giving up and take no prisoners (ok, now i'm just ranting!)  one thing that i found quite interesting: when i was buying a new pair of running sneakers, i was speaking to the salesperson as an athlete.  i didn't assume the posture of 'i'm new at this and i bet i can't do it, blah, blah, blah'.  i was talking as i was an athlete, a runner!  that was a huge milestone. that makes all the training worth it.  remember the "poser" from last year? i think she's gone and there's an athlete here now!

7/1/11

as i anticipate 9 miles tomorrow, i can't help but remember that everytime i add distance, i feel weak.  why can't i remember the strength of the past.  or am i afraid to fail so i set myself up to fail.  if i don't expect much, then when i fail i won't be disappointed?  well no more of that! be brave, be strong!  hit the pavement strong and take what comes, good or bad!