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ok, so i just did 26.2!  yes, my goal was to finish (goal 1) with a smile (goal 2) in under 6 hours (goal 3) which i did (5:58:48, and technically i was tearing up, but they were tears of joy and the pictures show a smile). so why is there such a let down.  and if anyone in cyberspace is reading this, i'm not looking for encouragement, just trying to get to the bottom of these feelings.  i should be on cloud nine, but i feel like there's something missing.  is it that the training is over and there's nothing to look forward to, maybe. did i give it my best, no. and i think there it is.  i was so concerned with "just finishing is an accomplishment" that i'm afraid i didn't dig deep enough.  what am i really able to capable of doing?  i'm totally proud of myself for getting out of my box & doing something i never thought i would consider, but can i do it better (that's something else that's new - i'm not one to redo something if it's not perfect, and i'm not looking for perfection, but i felt so good afterwards that i'm wondering if i just coasted and didn't really try).  anyway, hubby wants to try another 26.2 so we may be working towards another in october.  we'll see