10/14/10

wow, what a great day.  once around a beautiful lake with no watch, no gps, just the sneakers, a great friend and my legs to move me!  ok, maybe i'm not a poser, but when i run i feel like i can do anything.  when i'm not running i feel i can do nothing.  maybe all my decisions should be made on the trail / road!  oh hubby would love that!  and why is that first 30 minutes so hard and i'm so hard on myself; why can't i remember how great i feel when i'm finished.  maybe that's one reason to write, to remember.  maybe that's why God is always telling me to remember.  each step i take teaches me to be more confident and i'm so afraid of that confidence.  i've only known doubt and inability and fear of trying.  but i'm choosing each day to trust in what i know.  and what i know today is i can run up to 10 miles almost easily -- who would've thought! (maybe the ONE who knows me better than i know myself would've thought!)