10/4/10

ok, did i just slam at 1/2 marathon at 2:35:15?  yes i did!  i still can't believe i did it and sometimes i don't think i actually did.  i pushed myself and i finished.  if finishing = winning, then winner i am!  i look down at the bid, see my sweaty clothes and know that i did something.  i love that i can still amaze myself.  i may not be as strong as i wish i was, but i'm stronger than i think i am!  each step i take proves my naysayers (mostly myself!) wrong.  but i also cannot ignore what i'm learning about myself - that i'm introverted when i run.  is that who i really am all the time?  i love encouraging others and really enjoy saying "way to go".  but i love being in my own head. i also know that the one thing that pushed me the hardest was that i didn't want everyone to see me fail. and now i know that is a huge motivator in my life!  hmmmm